just my luck

To bump into HL when I’m just on the verge of a nervous breakdown.

On 2nd thought, 

getting out of the house was a good idea.

& the accidental encounter was somewhat briefly comforting?

Compared to the response I had at the doorstep.

& here I was contemplating to actually tell amma today,how I’ve been lately.
Stupid me.

It’s okay.
Good things happened today
1. Did 2 weeks worth of laundry & cleaned my room
2. Got out of the house to finally feed myself
3. Comfort: Finished half a book
4. Tear-fest lasted less than 15mins
5. S & CY are coming over next month

Plan:
Must try harder.

Confused

Why is the heart so uneasy; thumping & pumping

While the brain is in a slump; caught in between melancholy & emptiness

Not a temporary state of mind

This isn’t just pms is it?

Apparently feeling sad is a new norm me.

Again

Spent the entire weekend,wishing I didn’t exist.