Sleep is no longer working as an escapade.
I get up in the mornings more tired than when I went to bed the nights before.
These dreams(nightmares?) are getting out of hand.
Saturday, January 19, 2019
Monday, January 14, 2019
Saturday, January 12, 2019
Medication for the insane
I wish there was a pill that’ll just vanquish these thoughts in my head and make me normal.
Friday, January 11, 2019
Me too
Vatsy Atthe told me last night that BM grandma told her she won’t be around for long now & wished that when that day comes, it happens in her sleep.
Guess what apachi,
I wish that for myself too,
the sooner, the better.
Guess what apachi,
I wish that for myself too,
the sooner, the better.
Nightmare
Hugging the shit out of my bolster and hoping to fall asleep again.
But,
My heart’s thumping so badly in my chest right now
That I’m afraid it might escape my rib cage.
But,
My heart’s thumping so badly in my chest right now
That I’m afraid it might escape my rib cage.
Monday, January 07, 2019
Monday blues indeed
I think I fared pretty good today.
Even with that call in the morning.
Even after seeing the two chairs at the shop.
Even after losing my shit in the shower just now.
Cause even on bad days, there are some silver linings.
Like the cheeky kindergarteners and their cute antics
Like a friend accompanying you for menial tasks and the rant session you had
Like a room full of noisy people that keep your mind occupied with laughter and whatnots till 5
Like coming home and having someone ask you “how was your day? “
Even though I’m going to bed with tears in my eyes as usual.
For a fucking bad day, it was fucking bearable than all the sort-of-bad days lately .
Thank you silver linings.
Even with that call in the morning.
Even after seeing the two chairs at the shop.
Even after losing my shit in the shower just now.
Cause even on bad days, there are some silver linings.
Like the cheeky kindergarteners and their cute antics
Like a friend accompanying you for menial tasks and the rant session you had
Like a room full of noisy people that keep your mind occupied with laughter and whatnots till 5
Like coming home and having someone ask you “how was your day? “
Even though I’m going to bed with tears in my eyes as usual.
For a fucking bad day, it was fucking bearable than all the sort-of-bad days lately .
Thank you silver linings.
Sunday, January 06, 2019
New year new me
I’ve walked into 2019 even more broken than before
Can I not wake up anymore?
The only thing that’s stopping me,is my ego.
No way in hell am I going to be called pathetic & selfish for taking the easy way out.
It’ll discredit all my efforts up to that point.
Ego.
Can I not wake up anymore?
The only thing that’s stopping me,is my ego.
No way in hell am I going to be called pathetic & selfish for taking the easy way out.
It’ll discredit all my efforts up to that point.
Ego.
Friday, January 04, 2019
Sorry
Hate that I whine so much; complain & complain & complain
But I can’t help it.
Ranjaniy you’re truly a piece of shit. Miserably pathetic.
Tired
WTF happened to time cures everything?
Last I checked,
forever stuck in this endless loop
of constant misery with occasional short breaks in between.
Can the short breaks get long,and misery get shorter?
I’m tired.
Last I checked,
forever stuck in this endless loop
of constant misery with occasional short breaks in between.
Can the short breaks get long,and misery get shorter?
I’m tired.
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